Crisis of confidence?!

So, 100 days to go until the 17-18 Clipper race leaves Liverpool. Wowzers. They say time flies as you get older, well I can guarantee that it flies when you are on the verge of setting off on an adventure for a year.

My years of the northern line (yes I have to mention this again), a 9-5 desk job and impromptu drinks in a bar in London after work are already starting to become a distant memory and I haven’t even left yet! I am in the process of packing up my life in London – where I’ve been for the last 8 years and reality is starting to hit about the enormity of the task ahead…

I have been doing a lot of thinking recently about why I am completely uprooting my life, doing something I have never done before with a lot of strangers and spending all my money… put like that it seems like a lot of people’s worst nightmare! I am still really excited about it though. I keep thinking things like where will I be this time next year (nearly home as it happens!), how will I cope with the sleep deprivation, what will I do in a massive storm – will I be scared? And most importantly, how will I get on with everyone?! Or how will they get on with me?! So many thoughts and questions constantly flying around in my head!

One thing that prevails though is that I have to stay confident – confident that I have made the right decision, confident that I will be able to deal with sleep deprivation, confident that I can tackle that storm and confident that I won’t drive everyone mad (or vice versa)!

Confidence isn’t always easy, especially when those negative thoughts start creeping in or when you get negative comments from people, but the pull of the fresh air, sea spray, amazing people I’ll meet and the world (literally) I’ll see outweighs all the doubts.

With 100 days to go, I will be spending the next few months finishing my kit purchasing and testing, sailing training, keeping fit, moving home, wrapping up work (or trying to pretend that I am working while doing all my Clipper preparation) and sorting out the life admin. Apparently when you uproot your life and disappear around the world for the year there is rather a lot to sort out before you go!

I will leave you with a quote from a well known character, Christopher Robin which I read recently and has been with me through my minor (mainly admin related) wobbles…”Always remember you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think”. Bring on the Seven Seas!